Recently, I have had people ask me why I don't try out for the Voice. In the past it was "Why don't you try out for American Idol." What they didn't know is that I had tried out for both of those places and both times my stage fright got the better of me. Some people find it hard to believe that I could have stage fright. They tell me that I should have more confidence, they tell me that I am selfish for not sharing my gift with the world.
I politely try to explain to them that I have been working on this fear for years and that the solution I found was to create music (as you have seen) and put it out that way. When I am in the studio I work with one producer. He doesn't involve me in some of the process because he understands my phobia and the only time others are allowed to come in is after I have done recording my vocals.
I suppose, there may never be a time when I will be able to say that I have overcome this fear. Perhaps I will. Either way I am OK with whatever comes my way and with whatever destiny may have in store for me. I am OK with it because I love music. I love creating it and I love being a part of it. It doesn't matter to me if I never get on a stage because I know deep down in my heart that I am sharing my gift with the world. I am sharing my gift with you.
I put my music out on the radio to be listened to for free. Would I like for you to buy a copy? Sure, of course I would. Yet, that doesn't stop me from making the music or from putting it out there for you to enjoy because music is a part of me. It is a part of who I am and when I create music I it for the love of music and for the love for you.
We are in this together so are you with me?